I don't know why I feel like this..

I feel terrible. I feel depressed for no reason. Well not depressed, I'm not having suicidal thought just reaally sad. I want to cry right now, and I dont' really have reason to. The shit I go through on the daily shouldn't be phasing me, but I think it is. It's just hard for me to deal with. School is the only get away, and it's not the best get away:| it just makes me stressed and tired. Some of my "best friends" that I used to talk to every single day, or tell everything to, seem to be the people I want to tell everything last to, or don't even want to talk to them. It's not that I don't trust them, but it's like they're not interested anymore. They don't want to make an effort of being in my life anymore. I'm not gonna make you be in my life, I can't always update you like it's some type of news show and later you don't give a fuck, what's the point of telling you? You don't give one shit about me. Some of you are occupied with your bfs, some of you don't even give me a simple phone call(expecting me to do that shit like it's my job), some of you are occupied at tryna get at guys and that's all you think about, and I'm just here. It's only a few that only care and maybe that's why I had that one day I felt unloved and uncared for, because of what all of you have done to me for the past few months. I just miss you all I guess, that's what I'm pretty much saying.. I miss.. us. How we used to be. How close we were. How you guys were the only people who mattered to me, and now I feel drifted away from you all. Like you guys are on a tiny little island while I stranded in a little row boat out in the middle of the sea with no paddle, no nothing. I'm just all on my own.