It bothers me. It really really bothers me.
You get all upset over a tiny little decision I make and I'm over here feeling guilty as fuck. Yet you don't say sorry for calling me a "follower?" or "narrowminded?" These "words" you call me actually really hurt if you don't realize that. For your information, it's called "curiosity" and not falling under the influence. Yes, I may be friends with people who do these things, even worse than what I did but they don't shove it in my face and tell me to try it. I don't 'fall under the influence' too easily, I like to make my own decisions for myself, and I always have. You obviously don't know who I really am for calling me a "follower." Before I met you, I've always wanted to try certain things. Some decisions have changed over the years, now that I've matured but I'm still the same person who has wanted to have those same experiences. It's only now that I've actually done something because I came to that point in my life where I got fed up with the shit in my life. I'm old enough to decide for myself without my parents getting on my ass every second of the day. I get to choose my decisions, right or wrong. If I do something wrong, that's on my ass. Don't worry. I know you're looking out for me but do you honestly think I don't know what I'm doing? For crying out loud, I taught hundreds of elementary schoolers about things like that. Hell yeah I know what I'm doing. But I'm not stupid.
I'm just... annoyed. You're no better than I am. You had the audacity to say "you were on a side that no one agreed on." The fuck? I'm not taking drugs or drinking alcohol you moron. I'm not trying to become a prostitute or pornstar. One tiny little decision, all of a sudden the world comes crashing down? Wow.
How about you? You fucked up most of your high school career. Your senior year you ditched at least ten times at the beginning of the semester which resulted in failing a few classes. You were credits behind and ended up not getting your diploma. I'm still here though, aren't I? I pushed your ass to do better, I stuck by you even when you were crashing down and your whole family was against you. I have tried my best to keep you on the right track because I care. Then when I actually make one mistake, you try to make me seem like I'm really that bad? Wow. That's just wonderful. Little Miss Princess is too perfect, mistakes will end the whole world.
Ughhhh. Don't give me your "i love you and I miss you" bullshit right now. I can't believe this shit. -_-
