I'm gonna turn into a damn balloon if I don't get my eating pattern back together. Lately I would eat like a small portion of food, then I won't eat at all, then the next day I'll eat so much that I can't for the next days. Omg. It's even worse that I forget to drink water! So I'm helllla dehydrated -_- Greaaat. and I wanna start working out again but for some reason I've gotten so much put on my shoulders and I'm starting to get stressed so I won't have time to :\ I'll probably start in April, March is such a busy month -___-

I've been such a fucking crab lately..
I guess I really am pmsing.
I cried the other day, I hate the world today, I was happy yesterday, I'm all over the place. Bipolar status -_-
Plus my boobs hurt... it's madness.
Lately, I can't even have a good conversation with Aaron and it makes me concerned, but it's all my fault.. I've been hella moody soo.. I'm hoping this all passes soon. I better get my period after my 6 monthiversary, I hate being on my period..
*sigh*

I'm in love with my favorite baby making song. HAHAHA.
Mr. Incredible by Mya, lessss go <3

Holy guacamole! Lolol
I haven't been on in foreverrrrrr.
So, this 4-day weekend was definitely needed! It wasn't all that great, other than Aaron and Abby. Those two made my weekend <3
Hanging out with the ohana, was alright... I was more annoyed/upset when they were around but I guess it was because we were all in a bummy mood. I can't wait until Kris's birthday weekend, that'll be fun! These next few weeks will be very busy :\ blahh.

Ughh you piss me off dude. I can't believe we're fighting over this shit about a movie! You stupid vagina, my god. Build a fucking bridge and get over it! I'm so mad right now I wanna smash your face into a brick wall.
Me: Fighting fire with fire just makes a bigger fire Erwin. In some cases, fighting fire with fire isn't wise bc friendships might end up lost and I can't stand to lose you..
E: Maybe the fire shouldn't have been started anyway
Me: Most of the time it's unintentional and people don't notice they're hurting the other person.
E: Not unless they keep bringing it up and posting it on social networks
Me: I hope you realize me and Jan would've said Chronicle was a stupid movie anyways if we didn't watch it with you. We KNEW from the start we wouldn't like it, if Aaron dragged me I would've done the same. So honestly, you're taking it far up the ass.
No offense.
E: *no reply*
Me: I don't want this movie thing to keep us all apart dude.. what's keeping you from letting Adrian get closure from you?
E: *no reply*
Me: Thanks for making me feel like you don't give a shit about me..
E: *no fucking reply*
Bitch. -_-

I feel bad that every time I'm with Aaron and we're with a bunch of our friends we kiss eachother like a million times. I don't mean to, and I personally hate PDA yet I still do it :\ I feel like I'm being rude that's why every time we kiss in front of my friends I ALWAYS always always always have to say sorry because I'd feel awkward if my friends did that in front of me, like I wouldn't know how to act or what to do. But then again I can't help it because my relationship isn't like most girls where they get to see their boyfriends all the time. With my busy schedule, I can barely fit anyone in it :\ I only get to see Aaron 2 times the rest of the month. Cause I have community service commitments and then school commitments like rehearsals until 4-5 in the afternoon and then the musical. It kills. Knowing I can't spend so much time with him. So when I get to see Aaron or spend time with him it's like seeing the one you love for the first time every time..

sooo.. I guess that's my excuse to be okay with PDA when in comes to me and Aaron.. but fuck I hate PDA -_- I'm such a hypocrite. HAHAHA

Sadies night was a success <3
I have amazing friends and Aaron too.. he's lucky he redeemed himself, I wouldn't have talked to his janky ass for 2 weeks -_- He made my heart sink and fill with anger all in a millisecond today. "Babe. They're definitely not going to let me go anymore. They're furious." "What did you do? -_-" "I didn't pass my permit test by 1." -____- I was so mad that I had to punch Adrian several times! It just made me mad because I felt like he was just backing out on me again. It's not the first time he did, all my concerts and bonfires with my friends. Smh. I took time out of my hands to make him a sign to go to Sadies and if he didn't go, it would've been a waste. It just.. made me mad but he called and told me he was going so that took the anger away. Sort of. I was kind of mean to him today. Ha But he knew I was kidding :) Or was i..? Lol He wouldn't let go of me, he was so freakin scared to go up the Stratosphere. I'm shocked Adrian convinced him to ride the X-Scream ride. Haha it was so fun! Terrifying, with the fact that you're thousands of feet in the air spinning but it was so worth it! I loved the thrill (x Haha

I had such a great freakin day!! :D Until you squashed my happiness.. :\ I mean I'm still happy but what you did just bugs. It itches to the core. I was so nerve wrecked but got on that stage with a smile and personally I think Kristine and I did pretty well! and after the long night, I wanted to tell you how it all went and I understand I said I'd talk tomorrow but after what happened today you were the first and only person I wanted to tell everything to.
"..wow you're calling late at night? You realize what time it is right?"
"I'm sorry.. I just got done with my performance and I wanted to tell you how everything went."
"I know but you realize it's already almost 10?"
"Okay fine, I guess you don't want to talk to me."
"No, no, no. I wasn't expecting you to call, you said you would call tomorrow."
......
*sigh*
My heart was filled with joy and happiness & washed up nerves from performing in front of a full house.. I wasn't expecting you to give me that tone.. thanks for ruining my night. Love you too -_-

So I low key hope I get nominated for Best Smile! :D I mean, I don't mind if I don't win but as long as I get nominated, ya know? :)