I feel like I'm being so clingy and crazy. I don't know. I try my best to have time to talk to Aaron as much as I can but I feel like a nuisance. I fucking called like 2 times today. It's just hard... I go to school stress about homework and tests. Then I go to work and stress about the further training I need for work. He's all I want to talk to when I'm going through all this pressure. He calms me down. Sometimes I take out my anger out on him or I pick on him and act like an asshole but really he's the only person that can put up with the shit I give him. Maybe we're just too busy now? He has study for his GED, do chores 24/7, and look for a job. I try my best to squeeze him in my schedule but with his parents restricting him from talking to me, it makes everything so much harder. I'm left here on my own to cope with the stress. He's my stress reliever. I depend on him to just keep me sane. So when I DON'T talk to him, I seriously go insane.
But yenno, maybe we just need space. That's probably just it. So we have enough space to do whatever we need to do...
He needs to get his own damn phone, we need to get our licenses, get a car, and move out. I seriously need to get on my shit.

"I'm sorry"

Don't apologize unless you really mean it. If you do something wrong and you say "I'm sorry! I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry." Whatever you did wrong, better be that one time. If you do it again over and over and you say "I'm sorry" or apologize, that "apology" begins to lose its meaning. Therefore, I begin to stop believing whether you're really sorry or not.

Saying sorry doesn't give you an excuse to do the same mistake again. Just saying. If you make a mistake you better learn from the first time because there are only so many chances you can give someone if they fuck up again.

"2nd chances, people never change."

Don't say sorry just to "satisfy" or "spare" my feelings. If you don't really mean it, you might as well not say "I'm sorry." All you're really doing is lying to my face. Lying in any form is NOT tolerable. THAT AIN'T GON FLY WITH ME.

If we're arguing, that argument better be resolved and better end on a good note. Do not EVER leave an argument unresolved... unless you want to continue fighting about the same thing later on when it comes up again. Tired of arguing? THEN FIX IT. RESOLVE THE PROBLEM. COMPROMISE. and live happily ever after...

So you go on expecting something will happen and you wait. You wait and wait until you realize nothing is going to happen, so you go to sleep disappointed. This routine of "I'm sorry's" and "I'll work on it's" and "It won't happen again's" just get old. 

The boy cries wolf so many times the whole village begins to just ignore him because they're tired of falling for his constant lies. Until one day a wolf really comes and eats him all up. Moral of the story: If you say you're going to do something, keep your word and act upon it. Otherwise, your girlfriend will be pissed off and you're fucked. Period.  

I'm tired... tired of always sleeping upset, mad, disappointed, etc.

If you're going to tell me you're going to do something just do it. No excuses. If you think you won't be able to do something, tell me otherwise your apologies don't mean shit to me. Sorry.