It's gotten to that point where I'm becoming obvious. A lot of people are starting to notice something's wrong with me. I don't even know, myself. Aaron's getting worried that he's going to lose me and frankly... I can't even answer that either. God, my mind and feelings don't even match right now. What the hell am I feeling? What's wrong with me? I don't even want to talk to him sometimes, my "i love you's" don't really have any meaning anymore, I'll be having a crappy day and he can't even make it any better, nothing satisfies me anymore.. I used to hate wanting to teach him tagalog. The only thing I wanted him to know was Mahal Kita and now... now I don't even care. He was saying something like "mommy pull your skirt down." and I didn't give a fuck. Clearly it was family, either way I didn't care. I feel like I'm giving up... maybe that's it. Maybe I'm beginning to given up. :\ Omg...