It's crazy thinking about how I used to feel about you. I miss the old times where every little thing about you was my happiness. Thinking about you, talking about you, spending time with you, giving you gifts, wanting to simply hold you in my arms, laugh with you, and watch you smile simply because I made you happy. I miss everything. We had our fights. Some were either stupid or terrible. I mean I was told fighting was normal and I totally understand that. But then, April, May and June comes along and I notice things have been changing between us. I honestly don't know what it is. I honestly think it's just me. Everything is a routine with you. You tell me I love you and I tell you I love you back and it goes back and forth until one of us just stops. We don't really have conversations, they're rather bland. Just you're typical small talk. Then it's the physical distance we have that has always been our norm. I've tolerated not seeing you. 2 weeks, 3 weeks, 4... I don't even remember the last time I saw you. It's actually quite sad really. In a way I learned to think it was good that we didn't see each other and in all honesty it IS good, because "you don't get annoyed or attached" by the person you love. Well there's that, but there's more to it really. I hated not seeing you. I hated it to the core where it practically killed me if I didn't see you. Longing for you for so long. But now it's like... I honestly don't care anymore. About anything. Sometimes I feel like I don't mean it when I say I love you anymore. It's like... the words that have so much meaning behind it that describes how I feel towards you... simply... lost its meaning. Maybe I'm falling out of love, who knows. But whatever I'm feeling, makes me feel more distant towards you. Not in a physical sense, but in our bond. In our relationship. I'm not sad nor happy. I have no idea how I feel. I love you. I do, but... I don't know. I can't quite figure it out. Hm? O.o