I always seem to yell at him.. idk why. It's hard for me to really speak my mind without being mad. When something pisses me off, I yell. It's the only way I can really express myself. I can't seem to work things out in a calmly manner unless it's something minor. Sadly. It's just that things have bottled up and last night was when it exploded. I guess everything I've predicted was true. You think idk that we're not in the honeymoon phase? It's been like this for months. Our honeymoon phase was in September-October dude. Now it's different, I know that my feelings for you have gotten a lot stronger but it's like lately you just haven't seem to have a care in the fucking world. Sometimes I feel like you don't want to talk to me anymore. I told you before that we should limit talking, and now that you're parents have actually said something to you, now it's like okay with you? You used to fight. You used to not like the fact that we didn't talk. Now.. *sigh* idk. I know you love me, but sometimes I just question you sometimes. You claim it's an obligation to say I love you and shit like that but it's not. I'm not forcing you to love me, I'm not forcing you to stay. All I'm asking is if you adjust to the way I've been raised, tradition, culture, and all. Yeah, we both grew up differently but that's the thing we have to face together adjusting to the way each other was raised. I know I don't have the best manners, I wasn't raised with manners really. I mean I'm aware of it but my parents were terrible with discipline and manners. I was raised in a very negative environment where yelling at each other was a constant thing. My family and I have tempers, and that's just how it's always been. I can't help that I get mad so easily. I really can't, that's why I apologize a lot. I mean I know I say sorry at the wrong times, maybe a bit too much or little too late but at least I still set aside my pride to apologize. I could pull a fuckin Erwin and just twist everything around, blame everything on you, and make everything seem like it's your fault but no, I make sure I'm at fault when I know I do something wrong because I'd set aside my pride sometimes just enough to keep you.