I hate that I've become so weak. I cry a lot now. What the fuck has happened to me. I mean I've always been emotional and I let people get to me a lot but damn, it's gotten worse, shit.
You know what else I hate? How I've become needy.. What kind of fuckery is this? I NEVER needed a guy to make me feel whole. But now, it's like.. I do. I feel that I need Aaron in my life. I'm so scared I'm gonna lose him. I feel like I'm gonna push him to the edge one day and he'll stop loving me, get tired of my shit, and leave.. If I lost him, I'd feel like I lost the other half of me :(
"I swear it on my life baby, you're not going to lose me.."
I want to believe it but I don't know anymore.. I've seen a lot of my friends that have been in relationships for over a year and they've broken up, and it's sad to think that could be me. It could happen in a matter of months, years. That's why I don't want to get married yet. I'm afraid it'll happen :'(
I can't believe Sarah lied to me though.. that compulsive liar I swear -_-
"Did you know your brother wants to marry me?"
"WHAAAT?!"
"Ha. Yeah, but not anytime soon. I told him we could get married in the future."
"Oh well that's weird, we talked about that last week and he said noope!"
Whatever..
As long as he told me himself. I'll take his word for it since you're such a compulsive liar. I fuckin hate liars. -_-