I hate that I love you
No matter how sad, or angry, or annoyed you make me feel, I fall back into this spell you have on me. I look back on everything we've done together, every word you said to me to make me fall into your trap and that pain you caused disappears.
Actions speak louder than words
You haven't contacted me at all today. Not even a "hey sorry I don't think you'll be able to comeover.." or some sort of reassurance that you really do love me. Because frankly I can't believe it anymore. I'm tired of your stupid words. I'm tired of always being so "understanding" being so sweet to you. Never staying mad at you because frankly you mean that much to me that I can't stay mad. You've fucked up my heart and brain functions. Idk what to feel and think anymore. You're confusing me bro! What the fuck. Do you love me? I feel like you're lying to me. We haven't talked for almost a week now. 3 to 5 fucking days dude. Are you okay with that? Because obviously I'M not. I want to give up.. seriously. I don't want to deal with this. If you're going to continue to do this, how the hell are we going to have long distance relationship? In ANY type of relationship, communication is KEY. You NEED to communicate with each other in any way possible to maintain the relationship. Like seriously, I feel like I've been forgotten. I've been ignored. I don't even think you care anymore.
"You guys, my boyfriend is broken.. I think I need a new one." LOL
At least being with my friends for the past few days kept me sane. Aaron is obviously doing a poor job at keeping me sane. All he's done is frustrate and annoy me, stupid idiot.