Definitely not exactly how I thought it would turn out to be. All day it bothered me to know that he would be receiving that letter. I mean it was pretty relieving writing it all down and venting to close friends about it but idk, I guess I was scared of his reaction.
What I didn't expect was his phone call after school O.o

Me: Hello.. o.o
Aaron: Uh, are you busy?
Me: Uhm, no.. yes? no.. idk O.o
Aaron: Haha!
Me: Wait.. uhh no. I'm in the car, I'm going somewhere, but I'm not busy.
Aaron: Haha are you sure? You still sound unsure.
Me: Oh I'm sure, I'm not busy. Haha(:
Aaron: Okay, haha I love you..
Me:.. I love you too.. wait. Have you read it?
Aaron: What?
Me: Sarah didn't give it to you?
Aaron: Sarah you were supposed to give me something?
Sarah: Uh, I may have lost it.
Aaron: She said she may have lost it.. oh nvm. Found it.
Me: No! Don't read it when I'm on the phone with you! I'm gonna hang up! I'm serious.
Aaron: O_o uhh, why? What did you say?
Me: Uhm, let's just say I've been mad for a couple days and I just felt that I had to get it off my chest. I don't want you reading it right now. Read it later and like call me after you read it or something.
*after awhile of talking it got silent*
Me: Aaron?
Aaron: Yes dear..?
Me: Oh okay it got silent for awhile. Haha
Aaron: Yeah I'm still here.. I'm sad now..
Me: Sad? Why?.. Oh.. you read it. o.o
Aaron: Yeaah..

I didn't want to make him sad. It's just that, I couldn't help but feel the way I did. He still said he'd change, and idk what to believe. His dad is the reason for our lack of communication. I'm not surprised. "You're cutting me off from my girlfriend." "Yeah.. pretty much." That hurt me. I couldn't believe his dad said that and the fact that his dad thinks I'm just "some other girlfriend" Wow. Way to be discouraging. No faith. At least get to know me, I'm not just 'some other girlfriend' I'll prove you wrong, just you wait. There's no wonder why Aaron's the way he is. With the way that Denise treats Aaron and Sarah I'm not surprised they act the way they do. Especially taking everything away from Aaron, makes him want to rebel even more. Aaron isn't even supposed to be on the internet or even call me for that matter but he does it anyways. He pretty much does the impossible for me.. I'll give him that, that's for sure. Risking himself from getting trouble just to keep in contact which is ever so often.. it sucks. He put himself in this position though. That's what annoys me. This wouldn't be a problem for us but it is.. and I can't do much about the fact that his dad takes me away from him. Biggest cock blocker ever. Lol *sigh*

Me: Give me a legit reason why you didn't call me Saturday.
Aaron: There isn't a legit reason.
Me: So you're saying you didn't care to even call me.. you didn't want to go? Is that it?
Aaron: What? No. I would go anywhere with you..
Me: Then tell me Aaron, because idk anymore. You're making me question whether you care for me. You're making me question whether you really do love me.
Aaron: No.. I just knew he was going to say no from the start. He already takes my phone every now and then. So I thought to myself. 'Hm, should I call her? Maybe if I don't, she'll get the picture.'
Me: Well if you told me that from the beginning then I wouldn't have felt this way! That's the thing, we lack communication! You should've told me.

Fuck dude. It hurt me when he said "Maybe she'll get the picture." It made me feel like one day he'd leave me hanging or something. I still never got this all resolved though.. I still feel confused. Idk what to believe. I love him so much, and he knows it. Everyone knows it. I'm hoping I feel better by tomorrow.