Yesterday was an eye opener. I have to change. I can't be this way anymore. I can't let my anger get the best of me. What if the last thing you ever said to a loved one was "I hate you" and you wish you could take it back but you can't? I don't think I could ever live with myself and the guilt. I know we fight all the time, but this time was just the worst it's ever been. I wasn't expecting blood involved. I didn't expect someone was going to get hurt. But it did. It could've been worse, and that's what hurts me inside. It COULD'VE been worse. And I'm the reason for her anger. She can go and call me a lying bastard or tell me I'm worse than Jojo. Idc anymore. I couldn't stand seeing her cry because of me. It hurt me just as much. And it seems to get worse and worse everyday. Therapy is our last hope. We all need this. I'm done hurting. It's time to heal.