One text.

One text was the one thing that literally made my day.
It made me feel butterflies in my stomach again.
It got me excited to know he was thinking about me.
It made me feel happy.

But then again..
One text was also the one thing that destroyed me.
I feel sad, and I know I shouldn't be.
I have no reason to. I know this is really stupid
but.. I feel like crying right now. Idk why.
I'm like so bummed out it makes no sense.

I guess I really mean it when it hurts me how much I miss you.
I seriously don't know how people could handle long distance relationships.
You know they've got some major love if they can handle that. Of course it's hard, but if they could do it. Then that's incredible.

The reason why I couldn't see Aaron's point of view was because I felt he had nothing to worry about. I would NEVER cheat on him, or do anything that could ruin our relationship. I'm very faithful to him, because he really means a lot to me and I would never want to lose that. I would never want to lose him. All I'm worried about is.. whether or not he loses his feelings for me. That's all. "Don't worry, you'll be on my mind most of the time." and I truly believe that. I mean if you've been on my mind from the start then I'm sure I'll be on yours too. I hope. Lol but think about it. He's in a different state. We don't talk like at all. What am I supposed to think? Oh everything's going to be okay. 3 months I'm sure he'll still love me. Wtf no. That's why I'm worried. Feelings could fade away in a matter of weeks if anything. But idk, I guess til that day I receive a letter from him, that reassures me that he still has feelings for me and that he won't forget about me or whatevers then I'll be fine. I'll stop worrying. I'll stop getting all sad and mopey, and I'll be okay I guess.