My 30 Day Challenge was a bitch today-_- Originally, it was to Aaron. But idk, I remember this conversation I had with the fam yesterday. We all admitted we missed them. I told them I missed all of them, but the one I missed the most was Jojo. I didn't want to admit that, but it was true. I always keep a brave face, acting like I'm fine about them being gone, but really.. on the inside it hurts me the most. She's literally a sensitive subject for me. I hate that. I could reread my post as many times and I would cry every time. I teared up just writing in the middle.. and when I got to the end, I literally had to stop and get off the computer cause I couldn't take the pain.. I cried real hard. Again-_- Damn her. "You're gonna miss my face, don't lie." Fuck you dude, I didn't know I'd miss you this much! Ugh. But as long as I'm not the only one who felt this way.. the family feels this way. Its just hard knowing that I spent every weekend with her because I loved her and the kids far too much. I acted like it was an excuse that she filled up all my weekends. My friends were all like, "She doesn't own you Jess, just say no." and honestly, it wasn't even that. I WANTED to stay. I WANTED to spend every weekend with them. I just didn't want to admit it to everyone. Ha but I guesss. "Aww you're crying? You heart my face." -_____- Yupp, I sure do Jo.