I'm in like the worst mood EVER-_____-
After getting upset with Jan, it just put me in a "Don't fucking talk to me, I hate you" type mood. I didn't even want to talk to "A" and that's where it all started..
She got all pissy when I mentioned him, and I got all bitch mode because 1st of all, don't give me fucking attitude when I already have to deal w/ mom and 2nd, I'm sorry that I just seem to LOVE talking about the person I like, how about you ask me to cool it nicely rather than giving me a damn attitude? It just sucks that you don't see everything in my point of view. I even told you how I felt and all you did was look at me like I was some psycho.. you had no care in the world what I had to say and how I felt. "I do care." Really? Then why are you just staring at me while I'm telling you how upset I am of how you've been treating me like shit for the past week or so?
Idk, obviously it's my period talking.. but I couldn't help but think the worst ever. I cleaned and thought about what has happened for the past few days, and honestly.. I didn't realize how crazy I've gotten. I've been over analyzing things. What if he doesn't like me as much as he thinks he does? Does he realize what he's getting himself into? If he wants to be with me, he's getting the whole package.. family and all. I hope he could handle that. I hope he could handle ME. I just feel like I'm not cut out to be girlfriend material. Maybe I should live forever alone with 3 dogs. I mean I have NO experience of an actual serious relationship. I don't know what I should tell him and what I shouldn't.. I'm going crazy here-____- LITERALLY.
and I feel bad that all I do is talk about him. I want to stop. If my own sister got annoyed.. then think about the whole entire world? Maybe it's safer that way. Just keep it to myself. She always gets mad at me whenever I like someone. "Whenever you like someone, you always go overboard." What am I supposed to do when the only person you think about is the one you always want to talk about? Honestly, I don't know how to control myself from not talking about him, it literally blurts out. And it's only been days, what the fuck is wrong with me? Why am I talking about someone I've only met like a few days ago like I have some sort of obsession?
I'm so confused, I don't know what to do:(
