I have to confess.. I'm scared:\ After liking 'P' I put up with his lies and bullshit, and it hurt. Having to find out he didn't like me AT ALL, friendship wise, and having to find out our whole "friendship" was a lie, he only talked to me to get to Liz.. like what the fuck? He used me. I'm not fucking toilet paper, you don't go and use me just to shit all over me and throw me away. I'm a good person, and being treated that way made me bitter.. I literally gave up on my friendships with people, I gave up on guys and relationships. I couldn't take it anymore. I didn't want to get walked all over again and then.. "A" comes along and.. I'm starting to like again.. it scares me to open up again, but I feel like with him.. it's okay to open up. I just hope he proves me wrong. That's all. All I want is a guy to prove to me I can trust them, prove to me that I'm worth having in their life, and show me they really care about me. That's not too much to ask for, is it?:P