"Everyday I'm shuffling" maan I put that on repeaaaat(x I wish I could shufffle. It makes me want to so bad. Lmao

Anywho, it kills me how I can't see him for like 2 and half months and I already miss him. Wtf, and everyday the things he does gives me a reason to like him even more. It's just.. OVERWHELMING. A week ago, this kid was just some ordinary guy to me, "I've been bitter for a long time, who cares. Meeting him won't change me." But BAYUM, I see him and I automatically get butterflies. Why? I don't fucking know. I mean I honestly didn't know I was going to like him this much. I keep saying it.. "I can't believe I like him" because I honestly can't grasp the fact that I do! I hated EVERYONE. I hated making new friends. I hated looking for guys. I GAVE UP ON EVERYTHING. Then he comes along and changes it. I was already used to the loneliness. But you brought back the meaning of happiness to me, when I thought I'd forgotten what it was. I'm TERRIFIED. Buuut.. it's time to let go of what hurt me in the past, and the things that hold me back now.. I have to let it go.