Yesterday was pretty fun. We went to Gameworks. I was thinking of so many different ideas for next year's mentor trip, and they're all really great ideas if I say so myself.
Today was a pretty good day as well, except for the fact that I felt really "ehhh" allday. I dressed up all nice and fancy for my Coco Chanel presentation but Mrs. Colasuono didn't call my name:( so I have to dress up again on Thursday-___- it's a bummer, cause I was excited to present. Oh well:P
Mommy's friend was so nice. I wish I had someone complimenting me more often. Not trying to sound cocky or whatevers but I absolutely love and adore getting compliments. I wore a really pretty long dress and right when I walk towards the car she tells me "You look so beautiful honey!" Like that simple compliment made me feel really good. I guess it's because I have a really low self-esteem and my insecurities just depress me. It's like no matter how many times my friends tell me I'm pretty or beautiful or how great of a personality I have, it doesn't affect me in any way. I don't mean to be bitter but it's the truth. I think it's nice of them to say but it doesn't phase me. I don't care. But for a stranger or someone who doesn't say things like that to me that often, simply makes my day. Because it's honest judgement. If it weren't true they wouldn't have said it to you. When friends compliment you, it's like you expect them to do it. When mommy's friend said I'd go far in life, and I'd be the most wealthiest and most successful of my sisters.. I believed her. It felt really good to have someone support me and encourage me that way. My parents don't encourage me to do anything, they don't say "I'm proud of you for this.." or "Jessica, this and this.." It's always about Jojo and Jan. Jojo has a boyfriend in the military, Jan has straight A's she's going to be valedictorian of her class. They go to my concerts, they do certain things but it just doesn't seem good enough. I hope and believe mommy's friend.. I will go big. And i'll work hard. Maybe my fantasies can become reality if I just work hard and make them happen. I can do it, I know I can(:
