Oh and I forgot to mention that I found out someone likes me..
Erwin-_________-
Again.. it's been like, what..? 2 or 3 times he's liked me since I've met him freshman year? idk but maaan, when I found out someone liked me, I was actually excited? Lol It makes me happy that my presence in someones life makes them happy. That's all. Sometimes I just feel like if I suddenly disappeared no one would notice. No one would care. Everyone would live as if I had no impact in their lives. Ehh, I guess it's a bit deep, and it may not be true.. but that's how I feel. Because no one seems to make me feel any different. Maybe I should think different of myself in a more positive way but it's hard for me to believe I've made any impact in anyone's life if I've done nothing but watch people come into my life make me happy and suddenly when they actually mean a whole lot to me, they just drift away from me. It's like they're sailing away from me on a sailboat and I'm the lone wolf stranded and abandoned on an island of lonesome isolation. How flipping sad is thaat? Blahhhhhhhh:\