That just seems to be the only way I can talk to him-____- vent. That's all I do. I vent to him. It's terrible. Why am I so fcking emotional? Why? Why can't I just be a rock just like everybody else in this damn family instead of a stupid jellyfish who gets mad easily, who cries out of anger so much that she doesn't even know the difference between anger and sadness, the one who talks about her feelings all the time. I'm such a freaking cry baby and it annoys the hell out of me. I really take things to the heart. Happiness to me is beyond joy, anger to me is rage, sadness to me is depression, and jealousy to me is beyond envy/jealousy. What the fck bro, what am I? A freaking vampire? My emotions get to a level that's abnormal. I'm just TOO emotional, and I don't know how to handle myself. If I can't handle myself, then.. who can?

Sometimes I just wish I could turn my emotions off, and feel nothing. See how it feels to feel nothing.