Spring Break sucks so far.. I was actually glad to have a stress-free week of no school, but when I'm not worrying about school, family has to be the one thing to stress me even more out. I'm at a point where I feel like I have high blood pressure-_- Is that possible for my age? I've never thought it could be. Idk, but all this anger I have built up inside just does NOT feel good:\ I feel more hate inside of me than love, and that goes beyond my personality, beyond me and because she makes me mad so much I've gotten so irritable that even the small things she does or says to me makes me mad. It's getting ridiculous. I'm usually the peace wanting, no fighting, neutral one in our family and I guess her negative presence has gotten the best of me. Even my sarcasm is acting up! I'm more serious than ever. I was joking or being sarcastic around Jan's friend and she just stared at me like I hurt her feelings or something, and I had to really think about what I just said to her for like a millisecond and I responded saying, "Juuuust kiddinnng." Then thats when she laughed. Phew. I dont want to come off rude to people just because I'm angry at my mom. Taking my anger out on people, that's just not me at all. I wish I could just go somewhere far far away by myself, and not worry about ANYTHING. Not worry about my fcked up family, not worry about school or grades, not worry about drifting from my friendships, not worry about the damn world. Stress free, just me myself and I.