Ya know, I never thought it would hit me, until now. I get it, completely.. "I get it, your friends are everything to you.. but you can't always know every detail about them.. it's not that we're distant, but you have to understand that we're growing up. I'm looking for colleges and stuff, I don't even see my brother! but I'll always be here, if you need anything, ya know just call me." That talk w/ cousin opened my eyes. It helped me completely understand that "friends come and go." I mean I'm not saying that she's out of my life, but it's not going to be the same anymore. I can't be too attached anymore. I get way too attached and it's the thing that really hurts me, because once I get attached.. when they leave or gone, it hits me. Hard. Starting today, I think I'm going to stop getting too attached to people. I'm like.. relieved. I don't have to worry about drifting away or whatevers anymore. The tension b/w us was getting so bad that I guess we had to talk it out. I'm kinda glad it's resolved, but I'm still dissappointed that our friendship won't be the same. She'll always be my "cousin" so I can't mope about it anymore. I have to stop dwelling in the past, and comparing what's happening now to what we used to have before. I have to accept things the way they are.

"It’s so funny how someone can act like your best friend one second, then become a complete stranger the next. It’s funny how you can spend so much time sharing secrets and making memories with someone just to drift away from them in the end. It’s funny how someone can spend so many minutes of their life with someone who only becomes someone they once knew. It’s funny because you make all these promises about “forever” and how “nothing will tear us apart” but in the blink of an eye, they’re gone."

Yupp. I'm done! No more sappy days. I'm over it, I have to move on(: