So I now know why my mom has been so bitter towards me lately..
she's so overprotective. Even my dad has been. I guess they've noticed how much I love Aaron, and they don't want what happened to my older sister happen to me. But I hate it, they're suffocating me. It's like they're so blinded at all their mistakes, all the bad shit that's happened in our lives and they don't realize that I'm not the same. I'm not the naive little girl they once knew. I'm not stupid. I won't make the same mistakes they did, and I don't intend on doing so. Because I want what's best for me, I have my priorities straight, I know what I want to have.. getting there is just another big step for me. But I won't give up, I'm growing up and it's hard for them to understand that. I was so mad yesterday and this morning because my mom kept telling me, "You're going to come home pregnant. Blahblahblah" "You don't need a man, start getting a job. Do this. Do that." "He's leaving Jessica. Why don't you understand that? He's leaving you and you're going to be stuck here." The fuck dude, it's not even like that. You don't know what's going on.
What disappoints me is that.. my parents really think that low of me..
How can you honestly think I would throw away my future? How can you think that I would throw away everything I've worked so hard for? Is that what you think of me? That I'm going to fuck up, have sex, get a kid, not go to college, and just work to pay the bills? Like what the fuck? I have my future in my hands. I KNOW what I want for myself. I'm not going to throw away everything I've worked so hard for. I'm not going to make bad decisions for myself. I don't even drink or smoke or go to parties or do anything bad! Yeah I have a boyfriend. Who cares? I'm not that type of girl who gives up my life for a guy. To me, being in love and having Aaron in my life is a reward for myself. He's a reminder that even through all the bad shit I continue to go through in my life, I still have good things to keep me moving forward.
*sigh*
I'm not that little girl anymore guys..
