Odd. It feels like it's been awhile since I've blogged on blogspot. I don't go on very often anymore, I guess it's because I've been a lot more happier lately. I usually go on here to vent about my mom or talk about how cute Aaron is but I just haven't been in the mood to talk about that stuff. Hm, I'm actually shocked at how happy I've become. "Ya know wife, this has probably been the happiest I've ever seen you since you and Aaron have been together." And I didn't realize it until she told me. I feel bad that I've distanced myself from my family, but it's been helping me. I figured that staying away from my cause of unhappiness for awhile would make me happier and it has. It saddens me inside though.. I miss my family. But knowing that my mom has a personality disorder and her constant bs kills me. Then my dad's never ending criticism lowers my confidence and self esteem. It sucks. Whenever I'm around them, my heart just fills with anger, pain, and hatred. A LOT of my tweets are mostly about them. Whenever they're angry tweets, it's always them. I realized if they can't manage to make their marriage happy, then they can't manage to make their own family happy. "Once I get my income tax, I'm getting a divorce." "Your dad has so much money and I don't know where he puts it." "Jenny, this. Jenny, that." "Money. Money. Money." Like seriously? They act like children! It's embarrassing. How is it that, Jan and I are actually good kids living in an environment like this? Years stacked onto years, we've gone through all this bs and it surprises me that me and Jan manage to have good grades, stay in a good crowd of friends, not do drugs or drink, etc. We have our priorities straight. Most kids, become rebellious and become under the influence and hang around bad kids if they lived like this. *sigh* idk...