It sucked to be love sick yesterday. I fucking hate it to the core that i'm always love sick. Distance kills me. Idk how I'm going to survive later on when he leaves for 6 months. Actually, no. Distance isn't killing me.. it's the lack of communication! I'm tired of feeling like you don't care to talk to me. We don't talk about anything anymore. You don't bother to text me back right away either. I haven't talked to you for 2-3 days. I text you, you don't text me back. It's hard enough that I can't talk to you on the phone, and when you get a phone again, its the same shit just different situation. It's hurting me Aaron.. I feel like our relationship is based off of sexual contact. I love making out with you, I love your touch, your everything but our relationship shouldn't only be based off of physical stuff.. *sigh* I miss you.. SO much. You have noo idea. Our relationship is so great ya know? But.. lack of communication is the thing that's kind of screwing everything over. Sometimes I feel like giving up. I'm just like, "Why do I feel like I'm doing everything in this relationship? What's the point anymore?" But then I'm just like.. no Jess. You're being stupid. This is utter nonsense. You can't lose him. It'll crush you to lose him.. so I set everything aside and I come back to reality, I love him. I have to keep fighting to keep him, and never give up.