I really mean that much to you huh? I'm oblivious to the fact that I mean SO MUCH to you, it's not because I just don't care to notice, but because it's hard to believe that I mean that much to someone, that they're scared to lose me. You sounded so sad on the phone.. like your everything was on the line or something. I mean I guess that's just it, "with all your little flaws, and your little quirks, somehow you keep drawing me back in." I can't stay mad at you no matter how much I try. Even if you fuck up I feel like I'm obligated to get you right back on track and stand by you through anything. I don't why I feel that way, but I do. When Kathleen asked me "Do you think you're going to marry him?" I honestly didn't know what to say to that. I can't just be like, "Oh yeah definitely." Then it doesn't happen. I'm just bringing the highest expectation upon my shoulders just to lead me to my lowest when it doesn't happen in the end. I mean I'm not trying to say I don't think we'll ever get married. But for now I'm trying to just focus on our relationship. He's over here thinking about us getting married and having kids and stuff.. and I'm just like.. "Yeah.. Mhm" I don't know..