WTF dude. I'm not anorexic. What the fuck is wrong with you? Yes I've been drinking a lot of water and yes I don't eat as much as I used to. But that's just it! I don't eat as much as I used to. I used to eat when I was bored, when I was happy, when I was sad, when I was angry. I ate ALL DAY EVERYDAY. I over fucking ate. I'm done living that way. I'm only eating when I need to or when I'm hungry. I'm tired of being fat. I want to change my ways and you're seriously getting in the way of that. You get in the way of my happiness and you get in the way of me trying to eat healthier and stay fit. Seriously, get the fuck off my tits, man. And seriously? You actually had the time to walk into my room and state all the people that aren't here anymore, like Jojo and the kids being in Guam and like all the relatives that died..? Okay..? Are you depressed or something? Move on dude. "It's only 3 of us here." Dumbass, my dad's out there working and you're saying we have no money, we have no food, we have fucking nothing. STFU. Gawwwwd I can't stand you. The only time I was happy today was like 4:43pm to 6:54pm, "A" pretty much made my whole day. I wish you were here:( I want to spend time with you, I want to be with you and it sucks. I'd rather have our "I love you" fights in person because it would mean so much more to me. The only reason I wanna spoon so badly is because that way I know that the one person who truly makes me happy is holding me and making me feel safe. I don't feel safe and happy anymore. If a simple text from him can make me happy, I think being with him would make me fall for him so much more.