Abby, at least you're trying to convince yourself. You "know" liking him is bad for you but you continue to because feelings are things you can't turn on and turn off. You might tell yourself that they're lies but really I just think it's you "trying" to stop liking and that's a big step. That's called progress. And yeah, maybe you still like him, but how can anyone honestly think it's that easy to get over someone when you've had that much history, and you see and talk to the kid everyday. So don't put yourself down like that. You're progressing(: