So after watching Demi's interview last night on 20/20, it gave me more respect towards her. A LOT more respect. After all of the things she struggled through and overcoming her struggles made her become my celebrity role model(next to Lady Gaga) and also my inspiration to stay strong. I love how she held full on 100% responsibility on her mistakes, acted on her problem to make her a better person, and remained strong for herself and for her fans. Those are the reasons I feel the way I do towards her. She helped me believe that I can stay strong too. I've gone through so much crap bc of my mom, and I swear.. she's like the main reason for my unhappiness. I honestly don't want to put all the blame on her and making her seem so bad but it's the truth. That's how she makes me feel. I remember I was at a point in my life where I wanted to cut myself, but I didn't of course. I couldn't stand to go that far. Buut I wanted to. I was so depressed, and angry, and lost inside that I wanted to. I guess you could say that I was emo, minus the cutting. She made me this way. She's the reason I can't trust people very well, she's the reason why I have issues w/ touching, if she didn't put this stupid thought in my brain as a little kid I wouldn't be that way. I'm traumatized. I really am. And it hurts me. I can never be satisfied w/ my life bc I have to live through of all the negativity, I have to live through her bullshit. And after Demi's message, it gave me hope. Hope that I can stay strong, even if I feel broken all the time. I'm not alone and I can get through this. Thank you Demi Lovato, I love you!<3