:'(

That's the most intense fight we all ever had as a family.. I'm like emotionally unstable right now, i'm looking at my hands and they won't stop shaking. I want to cry so badly, but I'm trying to keep strong. There's only so much I can take anymore. I'm paranoid, scared, traumatized, depressed and I feel like no one's here to help me through it, or at least cheer me up.. my family's breaking apart.. literally, and I'm walking on thread trying to keep it together, on the outside I seem happy, but on the inside i'm writhing in pain, because of all the shit i've been put through. Everyone says they care, but really they don't, because they don't show me they do and I feel alone. I'm always there when everyone is going through something or when they need someone, because I care. My mom's probably right, "You do so much for your friends, but why don't they do anything for you?" But who's really there for me? I'm not asking for your pity. I'm not asking for your sympathy. All I want is someone to be there for me when I'm breaking down because I feel like there's no one to catch me as i'm falling.