ohemgeeeeh:O today was just AMAZING:P i had so much fun seeing everyone! i didn't realize i missed a lot of people:) ew, jovonie is just. ehh. his boyfriend was uhm.. wow.. it's hard to describe. lmfao i just wanted to keeeeep laughing evertime i saw his face, i couldn't believe it. jovonie had better taste than that. but it's aighht. jovonie is jovonie. gawwwd. i hate that everytime jovonie is near me or something i cuss like a lot! i can't help it though, he get's on my nerves most of the time. i'm gonna have to start all over now. ugh. tomorrow will be the first day of no cussing. hahah buuuut omg. i held hands with DAVIDDD! it was amazing! well not really. hahaha i was so nervous. my heart felt like it was gonna explode! i bet he felt the vibration my heart made! oh gawwwsh. but it definitely made me HAPPY:D it annoyed me though, he tried to make the first move in HARRY POTTER! gawsh mann! it's harry potter! i'm trying to pay attention! lol but "snuggling" with david just made me realize, i'm DEFINITELY NOT the snuggling type. lmao i don't even think i'm the hand holding type either. but idk we'll see.(: wooahh.. nathaniel looked purple to me:O but he looked gooood. hahaha ew. gawshh i felt bad that i didn't really talk to david, i didn't feel good after watching my sister's keeper. like i felt the same way i did last time i watched it but not as bad, i wanted to faint last time, but this time i felt lightheaded and tired, more like exhausted. it was weird. awww kathaleen looked so prettyyy(: abby made me laugh a lot today(: i just hope her slapping thing doesn't become a habit:P lmao hmm.
abby if you're reading this, don't get offended or anything kayh, i just want you to know the truth. but it really bothers me everytime you and kathleen talk about how both your mothers always come on time and everything. like really? it's hard enough for me to know my parents are always late. i try my best to shake it off and ignore it but it really does bother me especially to have my BEST FRIENDS say it. to be honest, it actually hurts me. and i've noticed most of the time you guys do it, my parents are around, or even before they come pick us up. i can't do anything about it either, i've realized i've been a mean person before and i don't wanna just tell you guys to shutup when it comes up, i don't wanna be that way anymore, and i knoww kathleen. if i say something like that, she'll be like, "dayumm wth is wrong with her?" do you know how that makes me feel? and lately i haven't been happy. i feel a little happy but its not enough to keep me from being worried and paranoid all the time. my mom must be on menopause, cause this whole week and the way she's been treating me, it's been getting out of hand, and when my parents argue it just scares me now that i'm older. it really does. when the volume is loud on the tv in other rooms, i'll assume right away that they're arguing and right away i get all shaky and slightly afraid. and my parents are the kind of people who would tell their kids that they're getting a divorce. and idk anymore. i actually feel like a divorce would be good. but at the same time it wouldn't be. i just don't wanna go through this and then hear my best friends say things that bother me, it just adds on to my problems, ya know what i mean? but yeah... kayh bye.
